Before I turned 46, I admit, I still think about dating. Not marriage. I thought about companionship. Just someone to talk to. Yes I do think of sex, but the person I want to do IT with isnt someone real. Hes just someone in my head
It almost changed everything. Now, for every man trying to get to know me, I feel such untrusting 'vibe' towards them.
My friends thought I mengada! Being silly, playing hard to get..
Then in another 'level', in another light, I feel unworthy of such nice, seemingly honest men..not too pious, I like it moderate, all the way.
And that brings me to this, 2 friends came over yesterday. I am the makjanz, I is the emotionally abused 1st wife seeking a divorce (apparently, after seeing me handling things like a supermom, {she said that, ok! Haha} So she thought "if you can do it, 3 kids, and a spinal issue to worry about - so can I. Peanut!") And S, happily married, 4 kids, loving fun husband, and I like her husband very much. He is a nice humble guy, great cook!
We asked each other, how did we get to where we are now, as who we are today??
S and I were the clubbing kind. I, however (lol, this is confusing! Lets call 'I' emm, lets call her D) ok... D however had worn hijab since school. So shes the good girl (gone bad...? Lol) never stepped into a club in a mini leather skirt, knee high boots and and a halter bare-back with string in the front (thats me) ..or, in really short shorts and bustier (thats S). Never. So merrily, we were at each other, and the baddest one, is the happily married one! Still running around like teenagers, checking in to hotels, being sneaky, while they send off the kids to camp!
Thats what I want. Im not asking a lot. I just want intimacy to be important to him as well. Being spontaneous. The leader of the family. Practice Islam. Id like him to be a little naughty with me, not a pervert!
Well, alright ok, no such man exists Norrie. Keep dreaming. Its safer.
So..... dating at 46? And risk marrying a pedophile who is after my children instead?
I actually really like my life right now, apart from certain dispiritingly ordinary unimpressive annoying people!
Haha.. but like I said, itd be nice to have someone I can talk to. Run to, to share my good news. That kind of thing..
:-)
Would love to hear from you guys on this.
It almost changed everything. Now, for every man trying to get to know me, I feel such untrusting 'vibe' towards them.
My friends thought I mengada! Being silly, playing hard to get..
Then in another 'level', in another light, I feel unworthy of such nice, seemingly honest men..not too pious, I like it moderate, all the way.
And that brings me to this, 2 friends came over yesterday. I am the makjanz, I is the emotionally abused 1st wife seeking a divorce (apparently, after seeing me handling things like a supermom, {she said that, ok! Haha} So she thought "if you can do it, 3 kids, and a spinal issue to worry about - so can I. Peanut!") And S, happily married, 4 kids, loving fun husband, and I like her husband very much. He is a nice humble guy, great cook!
We asked each other, how did we get to where we are now, as who we are today??
S and I were the clubbing kind. I, however (lol, this is confusing! Lets call 'I' emm, lets call her D) ok... D however had worn hijab since school. So shes the good girl (gone bad...? Lol) never stepped into a club in a mini leather skirt, knee high boots and and a halter bare-back with string in the front (thats me) ..or, in really short shorts and bustier (thats S). Never. So merrily, we were at each other, and the baddest one, is the happily married one! Still running around like teenagers, checking in to hotels, being sneaky, while they send off the kids to camp!
Thats what I want. Im not asking a lot. I just want intimacy to be important to him as well. Being spontaneous. The leader of the family. Practice Islam. Id like him to be a little naughty with me, not a pervert!
Well, alright ok, no such man exists Norrie. Keep dreaming. Its safer.
So..... dating at 46? And risk marrying a pedophile who is after my children instead?
I actually really like my life right now, apart from certain dispiritingly ordinary unimpressive annoying people!
Haha.. but like I said, itd be nice to have someone I can talk to. Run to, to share my good news. That kind of thing..
:-)
Would love to hear from you guys on this.
